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victim of crime victims/witness program in washington state 360-696-1365 Last March I was approached by another inmate and ask if I knew anyone that would kill his wife, I thought about it and we came to an agreement on how and when and where it would happen, I went to local authority's we set this man up and he was arrested. that took 3 months to do to get the right evidence we needed to send him to prison. Now he's in jail on a million bail and I have all these meetings with the prosecutor's and his attorney's and can't go back to work because of the involvement in this case. Three months go by and I am Assaulted by Crystal S. Williams. She was charged with a felony DVin which she did not have to pay any restitution or was this person fined.Next evening at the local Fred Meyer's store and on my way out of the store I see the same lady that just helped me yell at someone who was shoplifting and he pushed his way by her. When i seen what had just happen I followed the thief to a waiting car and as he got into this Chevy blazer the driver jumped into his side put the key into the ignition as the thief told him "get the hell out of here" I was hit by this blazer and thrown 30ft into the air. With five witness's in whom i did not know telling the police what had happen they caught this man and took him to the same hospital I was sent to. I stayed two days and was released. The driver was taken to the hospital and released. In the newspaper and on the local tv station's they said he was caught and charged with 3 felonys, hit and run felony vehicular assault and robbery. He was never charged. When i found out about this I question everyone including the prosecutors office who at the time was their key witness in a "murder for hire trial". They said there was nothing they could do case close. He was never charged and no-one would tell me why. I emailed everyone in the city council here in Vancouver Wa and finally I got the city attorney to file charges on this man. He was charge with assault four a misdemeanor but enough to get crime's victim involved. Now just about a year to the day when this man ask me if I knew someone who would kill his wife he goes on trial and because of my testimony he was found guilty and sentence to 53 years in prison. Great i am thinking this part is over and now i need to figure out why this other guy was not charged with a crime. I am getting no help from anyone the welfare denied me help crimes victim/witness denied me help and I am sleeping couch to couch. With pains in my stomach and bad thoughts running through my head i am beginning to think I am going crazy. I go to the hospital for my pains and end up having a surgeon coming into my room and telling me he wanted to take out my gallbladder, he did and after that he came out and told my friends that my gallbladder was good and that he was sorry and did not know exactly what the problem was. I spent seven days in the hospital with worse pains then before I went there. I go back to a friends couch and recover from this uncalled surgery and go online to Washington's courts and put this guy name in and find out he has NINE new driving offense's and is still driving. Now I am not thinking right and put myself into a mental hospital. there I was diagnosed with PTSD, Major Depression Disorder, Recurrent because of what I was going through. I sent the Crime's/Witness Program what I pulled up on the internet and they approved my claim. Now they approve my medical bills and because I did not work 3 month's consecutively (I worked nine weeks) they say they do not owe me any compensation for me as a victim. In the year and a half of all this going on I was responsible for me getting back in forth to the first case and getting them a conviction but yet they turn their head on helping me. I worked with the detectives for three months to get a convictions and then the prosecutors for another nine months do you think they would help me out? No they would not even give me any money for the three times I was subpoena. What can i do to get these crimes victim/witness program to compensate me? Let me get you up to date on where I am at with all of this. First of all I have just completed the ADAPT program after spending 4 out of 6 weeks in the Station Two Mental Hospital. There I was diagnosed with PTSD, Major Depression Recurrent Disorder and then put on eight different meds. I still see a therapist once a week and she does not see me getting better any time soon. For the last year and a half I have not had a penny to my name. I have had friends that let me stay with them but that would ware out, so I would sleep in the woods having thoughts of hanging myself from one of the tree's, then I think about my six children who's mother's haven't let me see them in 18 years, just because the mother's said NO you can't visit them. Anyway I would not like them to think I was so weak I would commit suicide. No I want my kids to know me by not what their mothers tell them but by who I really am. I get upset because it seems like no-one is listening to me kind of like the movie "I am Sam" I feel like I am a retard somewhat and why would God let this happen? I cry in front of people I don't even know just as I am now having to explain this again, I am so tired not being able to have a day I can say "hey today is the day we are all going to the beach" I can't because I have no money to do so. I watch others as they get ready to go and knowing the situation I sneak out and find myself lost in a place i thought was America but begin to think I am in a communist country. I see all these people from the Dino Constance "Murder for hire" case get paid all this money and why did they get that money, Me, Ricci Castellanos gave them that everyone who worked on his case and the people who will oversee him for the rest of his life. Then there's the guy who hit me in Fred Meyer's parking lot all the party's involved from the ambulance company who has taken me to the hospital at least 6 times at 848.00 each time, the surgeon who took my gallbladder,the mental hospital i stayed for a month at 3000.00 a day,the ADAPT program for its outpatient program at 2000.00 a day, my meds,emergency room visits anyway its getting close to the 150.000.00 allotted from crimes victim when all they had to do was pay for my hospital stay when i was hit by Andrew A. Bartholomew the driver of the Chevy blazer because I was working making 42.77 an hour as a job site superintendent. I am seeing over a million dollars paid out and still being paid out and it was all because I chose to save a woman's life and then again try and help another lady who was pushed by a shoplifter. If I was to get some kind of payment I would be able to get my own place with a calendar and mark those events I want to go to. i would be able to hopefully get off these meds and feel like a normal person. I feel so lost and I shake all the time because I am scared that someone wants to hurt me. Since the arrest of Dino I have been beat up three different times for being a RAT, and those were from people i did not know. If someone gave me 53 years I would have nothing to lose, I would make sure who gave it to me dies. I would make sure he is taken away from his loved ones as he did to me. I am scared of the police here because I am making an issue of them not letting me know I had rights as a witness to be protected from harm and threats. They did nothing but set me out there to be victimize by both sides. I guess I rambled long enough, sorry. I don't go anywhere and I am sad because I don't have anyone anymore but people getting paid for me to ride my bike to all the appointments (hoops) and it makes for along bike ride. The bike I have is one I put together and it is not even a adult bike my 1200.00 bike was stolen from Fred Meyer's the night I was taken to the hospital after being hit and no-one wants to help me there either, but you know what I have never missed a appointment (hoop) because I have to do this all by myself I live and breath this damn mess and I am so tired i don't want this in my head no more I want to be loved by a real woman I want to have feelings like I use to, I want to be touched not hit by people who care. Please I am begging you as a humane being to not let this go unjust. Thanks so very much for even giving me the hope that someone like yourselves can and will see that the right decisions are made. I lived by the law of the land, what gives others the right not to do so even when they are the ones who wrote these laws? I forgotten to inform you the Clark County Prosecutors Office when I was their Key witness that they as prosecutors never did inform me that I had rights as a witness. That I was to be protected from harm and threat to be informed of all court proceedings involving Dino Constance. That I was to be protected from having to talk to investigators but I was tricked by investigator to talk to him about another case i was involved in back in 1995 the Happy face killer Kieth Jesperson. He was my cell mate and I was the first one he told about the 8 murders he had done. I was the one who went to the Multnomah County Sheriffs and told them about Tanya Bennent. I was the one who got the two people that were in prison for 5 years out for her Murder. Yes I see a good chance for Dino to win his appeal and what would it look like that this ric castellanos has lost his mind? Yea they sure did protect me as you can see. I don't know what I am going to do it seems like everyone has their own agenda and I guess when it comes to me am not part of it. I want so much to be happy but I am very alone. I met with the two ladies from Clark County VA and they met with me at the hospital where I was a patient at Station Two. It was nice of them to bring me a 50.00 Winco card, I used it to buy bathroom and other house cleaners. I am a compulsive cleaner inside and out and I believe I get that from growing up in foster homes and groups homes when I was younger. I am 49 years old and I have always wanted nothing but for someone to be proud of me. Do you know what it is like to grow up in 5 or 6 or even 7 homes a year? I bet not. Let me tell you a little about growing up in a home that is not yours. First of all when the women from the State Welfare Office pulls up and you recognize them you know that they are there to take you away and for no reason as a kid you don't say nothing to anybody, you gather your things and get into the back of their waiting car. What is a kid to say? None of the other boys had to leave, what have I done, I never could figure that out. No tears to shed just these two women telling me I was going to like my new home and that I would have to change schools. Yes I was going to the other side of town to be money in someone else's pocket. (kinda of like all the pockets I fill now) I had to bring my two paper bags with me always because that is all I ever owned (that is two more bags then I own now) and my life was in those bags. I would come into these home and try my damn est to be wanted. I never stole from any of them but back then there was not to many Mexican children around and I would get blamed for a lot of things that came up missing. When I would go to bed, I would have to the closet and get out the foster kid bed. Kids that had been there awhile would have their beds, kinda like jail when you go there you start out on the floor and wait for someone to get released. But again I was so use to that it was pattern. I would lay there wondering where my parents were and why didn't they want me and where's my brother how come I couldn't go where he went? I would here them in the other room, they thought we boys were all asleep I could here them talking about me. Saying things like the money they were getting for me wasn't going to enough for them to take the vacation they had been wanting to go on. I would get up in the morning while the other boys were already getting to the breakfast table, I was folding my bed and putting it away only to be in trouble because we didn't come down as a group. I did the same as I do now and say I am sorry, I will try not to be late. Those mornings would be my last mornings in homes like that because I did not like getting yelled at in front of strangers I did not like being mad fun of in front of people I did not know. I would eat, do my chores and get ready to go with either one of the parents to go sign up for school, taking as much as I could without them knowing I was not coming back. School's out and I am on the other side of town. I don't know anyone but a couple of the boys from the home and I tell them "I am not going back" and runaway. I would go a couple days walking around town and find my way back to the detention hall here in Vancouver and they knew I would be coming back as they always kept the cell next to the kitchen there for me. About three years of that here in Vancouver two years in Portland and six years in Stockton CA I grew up with seeing and feeling hurt and pain from the inside out and here I am at 49 years old and I still have people making money on me being who I am. Still dragging out that cot from the closet because it beats sleeping on just a floor or under some tree, still having people talk about me and laughing but in a way that I don't understand. You see when I was young I did learn something, I learn that I have only of keeping jobme and that the hurt the pain I went through well, it hurts it hurts really bad and I would never want someone young or old, child or adult, good or bad to go through what I did then or what I am having to go through now. You'll go home tonight, think about this email, and when you do think about it please think from your heart, like I did when I try to stop a woman from getting killed, another from getting pushed by a shoplifter, or a man and woman in prison for five years for something they did not do. I did not know these people but did what I thought was right. Do you think they think about me and wonder what I am doing now. This weekend a elderly friend of mine sister was being buried and her daughter invited me and her to dinner over in Portland because my friend has not been out of the house for the last six months as she is recovering from throat cancer and me well I just don't get out. As we were sitting in the restaurant a person comes in and comes over to the table we were at and and says to me "why did you tell on that guy he wouldn't of never done that where in the hell is your integrity" and walked away. Ten minutes later people started chanting "home wrecker home wrecker" to the point I got up and walk to the car. "This is aIt was not a good feeling but at least I did not get beat down this time. And then we have my visit to the doctor yesterday when again I was denied services because of CV insurance. I needed this appointment but Ivan denied me again and who the hell is Ivan. Hey Ivan I hope seriously that someday you are walking out of a store and someone wipes you out and then are put through the same trail as myself. But we all know how the system sticks together you would never be here, would you. It has been over eight days and I have no more meds cannot get a doctor to get them for me don't get any messages returned to me as I have called CV's and no-one calls me back. Oh don't you know how I feel having to live like this for the last 20 months and nobody gives a damn. Why does Julie get to keep her job as she is the one who put me in this state of mind but yet she still gets to go home to her own home sleep in her own bed. It is not fair. You know I am going to kill myself because I cannot live like this I cannot go to another doctor and sit there knowing when I get up I am going to walk out of their doors and be the same person that walked through them doors. I am going to be without any money I am going to be even more pissed off then I was before I got there knowing that are going to be paid for their advice, telling me things I already know. Do you know what some people call me because I cannot buy new clothes because of Julie's deny me for a year and because she again is the reason for me feeling and looking like this "Pig Pen" Yes thats me. Hey Julie, what is the last thing you bought? Was it for you or a friend maybe a family member and do you talk about how you screwed me over do you laugh? You have never even offered to apologize to me.

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Amy,
well i went to the hospital and because my blood pressure was 206 over 112 they kept me there. I scored a 13 out of 16 so they had a nurse stay with me over night. 16 means the highest you can get in a behavioral state of mind. then I walked back from there to here. Still hating life. I have 18 prescriptions cannot get filled that sucks. keep n touch
ricci castellanos

Hi Amy, here is a list of meds I need to take daily and I have 18 different prescriptions and yet cannot get these filled. Now these are signed prescriptions from medical doctors why can't anyone see I have medical issues? there is a reason I have to take these meds they are all from three different medical doctors, if they can see a problem why can't Crime Victims or DSHS
http://aol.mediresource.com/drug_info_details.asp?brand_name_id=1304
seroquel 150mg
http://bipolar-disorder.emedtv.com/seroquel/seroquel-25-mg-tablets.html
seroquel 25mg
http://home.intekom.com/pharm/donmed/remeron.html
remeron 15mg
http://www.chelationtherapyonline.com/technical/p95.htm
lisinopril 10mg
http://www.medicinenet.com/captopril_and_hydrochlorothiazide/article.htm
hydrochlorothiazide 25mg
https://members.kaiserpermanente.org/kpweb/drugency/drugdetails.do?drugID=265723&name=Hydroxyzine+25+mg+Tab&index=true
Hydroxyzine 25 mg
http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/417985_5
citalopram 10mg

Hi Ric.
Wanted to check in and see how things are going today. Sounds like its been an up and down week for you. Any word from Evelyn regarding your GAU status?
Glad you were able to see Gayle this week. I know your sessions with her are a source of strength for you.
I am attaching the release of information for Dr. Moore. Fax it back to me when you get a moment. Is there something specific you would like me to talk to Dr. Moore about?
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Do you still have your meeting scheduled Monday with the Housing organization?
Talk with you soon Ric.
Amy
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From:	ric castellanos (youneye469@hotmail.com)
Sent:	Wed 2/18/09 2:19 PM
To:	Amy (CTED) Pearson (amyp@cted.wa.gov)

Well I went to the Dr. office this morning and my blood pressure was 186 0ver 105. When the Dr. came in and read those results she automatically check my breathing. she gave me four new prescriptions included in those was two for depression another for my high blood pressure and one for insomnia. all these I can get at Wal-mart for 4.00 a piece, I do not have even 4.00 for one. How my life sucks right now. I then went down to DSHS and copied those scripts and left them for Evelyn to have. She holds the key to me getting better or killing myself. I am at the 85% level right now that my I will not get better so why should I put you and others in it anymore. I don't deserve and in this State I am not a worthy Citizen. Very Suicidal right now and why not?

ricci castellanos

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Subject: Re:
Date: Wed, 18 Feb 2009 07:46:53 -0800
From: AmyP@CTED.WA.GOV
To: youneye469@hotmail.com

Good morning Ric.

I'm glad to hear you had any appointment with Dr. Moore. Sounds like it was a positive experience for you. I'm happy to connect with him if you think it would be beneficial to you.

I am out of the office the next couple of days so will need to send the release to you when I return.

What's the word on Evelyn and your GAU application? What is the next step?

Were you able to get your prescriptions filled?

Let me know where we are with things today - I'll be checking email when I can.

Amy

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From:	ric castellanos (youneye469@hotmail.com)
Sent:	Wed 2/18/09 7:53 AM
To:	Amy (CTED) Pearson (amyp@cted.wa.gov)

Hi Amy, No I have not gotten my scripts filled, no I have not talk to Evelyn but have left messages. I went to see Gail yesterday and I am on my way to see my doctor for my health. I went to the hospital for records about a hernia in which I never had and they are going to send me the records. This is what Julie is talking about. It was a gall bladder taken out because i had pains in my stomach caused from PTSD.
gotta go
thanks

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From: youneye469@hotmail.com
To: amyp@cted.wa.gov
Subject: http://www.pearsonassessments.com/reports/mmpi2outpatient.pdf
Date: Mon, 16 Feb 2009 12:42:47 -0800

Hi Amy, I went to the Clinical Psychologist this morning and took the MMPI-2 report in Dr. Lawrence H. Moore PH.D Office. He is a neuro-psychologist. He knows who you are and i ask him if it were alright for you to have contact with him to talk about me, he said that would be fine. His number is 360-693-3716 and fax# 360-727-8269..
So if you want to e-me the proper paper work I could sign it and fax it back to you through the DSHS office. The above link is that of MMPI-2 web site..

Hi Ric.

So, I was able to speak to someone at the Clark County Prosecutor's Office regarding your time as a witness in the Constantine trial. According to Annette Huss and Mary Todd, each witness is eligible to receive $10 and reimbursement for mileage. That is the extent of "payment" for witness activities in Clark County. If you never received your $10 or mileage reimbursement, you will need to go to the Clerk's Office and they can get you squared away.

It's not the answer you were looking for, but it's what we got. I'm curious if you are connected to any DSHS services? Did you mention GA-U? If not, this might be a viable resource.

Amy

Hi Amy, Well on Friday i went to my appointment and took my laptop with me. When Dr. Moore ask me what i have been up to since he last seen me I showed him the letter I sent with pictures of exactly what i have been through. I also let him see what you and i have been exchanging in the terms of emails. He read it all was impressed I believe in the way iI had written my letters. He was the one who said last year i was able to work, that was before I had went to Station Two and they dianoised me with PTSD and Major depression. He ask me if I had printed this out and I told him I had sent it to about 200 parties within the US, so I believe someone out there printed it out.I told him i want to go back to work and could probably work a day or two but like Gail says its going to take a few years to get back to being normal, but what is normal, right? I have to go in a 9:20 tomorrow for a MPP test about 2 hours. So then I get a letter from Evelyn telling me I am going to get cut of from my food stamps this month also because she does not know where I am. She has not tried calling me and I made my appointments what the hell.
thanks ric

Amy ‏

From:	CTED OCVA Home (OCVA@CTED.WA.GOV)
Sent:	Tue 10/28/08 2:59 PM

Office of Crime Victims Advocacy
800.822.1067 RE: Tuesday‏

From:	ric castellanos (youneye469@hotmail.com)
Sent:	Tue 2/10/09 9:03 AM
To:	Amy (CTED) Pearson (amyp@cted.wa.gov)

It is snowing right now so I cannot go anywhere so I am going to cuddle with my cat on the floor for awhile. So call me, give a reason, hope (faith) something to take these thoughts out of my head. But again I am able to go out and work right, NOT..
Thanks Amy,
Ric
RE: HB 1476 - 2009-10 Victim of Clark County's Victim/Witness Program‏

From:	ric castellanos (youneye469@hotmail.com)
Sent:	Tue 2/10/09 7:45 AM
To:	Amy (CTED) Pearson (amyp@cted.wa.gov)

Hello Amy,
Last night I was given a 20 day notice because I cannot pay my rent. All weekend I worked around this place and for nothing just like everything else I try to do its all for nothing. I really tried, you or no-one else might not think so but anyone who knows me, knows that I am the hardest worker ever known to man kind. They also know I will not lie to or for you or steal anything from anyone. they will tell you 99.9 % of the things that come out of my mouth is real I can't even tell a joke and this is why I have no friends. My friends are all elderly person's who have been taken advadage of and I have stop that in their lives, because I am to honest.people don't come around these people to do that to them like before. And for being like this, this is what I have to live like. I need meds I need to know that I am going to be alright I don't feel like that anymore. Please let everyone know that I am going to to the hospital this morning after the weather clears up, before I in up in the morg.
Ric

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Subject: RE: HB 1476 - 2009-10 Victim of Clark County's Victim/Witness Program
Date: Mon, 9 Feb 2009 07:18:06 -0800
From: AmyP@CTED.WA.GOV
To: youneye469@hotmail.comRic,